Some days there is no stopping me, and other days there is nothing but treacle.
The most significant change in my life is accepting that the treacle is genuine. The treacle needs to be eaten because it is part of life, and it can be enjoyable when dealt with properly. The recipe needs to be good to make the taste palatable… the formula is the piece that I have worked on more recently. If I have to eat treacle, then I am eating it with the best of recipes.
Today my treacle is tiredness. I feel like I am wading through the thickness of the treacle with every thought and breath. Previously I would have pushed through this treacle, but I think differently about all that sh*t now. I think differently about pushing on through the barriers.
I have other ways to balance it. I just don’t give az much of a f*ck now.
Take an afternoon nap, for instance. This is something I would never have dreamed of before. I would have seen it as a waste of time and a drain on my productivity. If I took a nap, it would have left me groggy. I would lose a couple of hours of working time, and then I would destroy my ability to fall asleep when I go to bed at my usual time.
I would have also been p*ssed of and felt a stack of guilt because I would have been ducking out something that I thought I should have done.
Now I say, fck it. I will do what I want when I want to. If I am tired, then fcking sleep. If I am sad, then take the time to be low as I need to be to get it out of my system. If I need headspace – then… Take the f*cking time for that.
I took a nap this afternoon. My day off, and I had loads to do, but I napped. It was great. It was the right thing to do today at that time.
After taking a nap, I showered and was also empowered enough to be even more engaged than before I took this me time.
Now I feel great. I think I have my superpower for creating sh*t back.
I have no time for blogging deeply today. I am off out with my camera.
Stay safe and always know when you have to do what you have to do.
That my friends. Is the f*cking secret of life.
Know one’s self.
And make the choices so that you appreciate yourself and how you feel at that moment.